the things you describe yourself as are things that you can try to change and improve
you'll have our support and encouragement every step of the way if that's what you want
don't give up (but maybe give up on your girl if she keeps ghosting you)

Don’t make your pets sad :c they love u, pat ur pets for me
Also you’ll definitely find a job dw. There’s even like freelance stuff u could make art or code for people or volunteer pet shelter and get reference for a good job there’s a lot of things

look let me tell you something.

you want to keep your family happy, right?
you know that if a person dies, DESPITE how ugly, broke, and pathetic that person is, their relatives and friends will be unhappier.
Because you don't want to make your family sad, you shouldn't kill yourself

ok i reread this and this is absolutely a terrible way to react to something like this
im posting anyway