not to get defensive (for I love languages very much)
but perhaps it might help to view language as an image of your thoughts? or of concepts in general. a simulacrum, in a sense
It doesn't necessarily restrict you.

Though I am curious, why do you hold such hatred toward inner monologue? As for me, I don't have a constant monologue or anything, but I can speak to myself in my head, which helps me slow down my brain sometimes (but can also make it worse). To be honest it's a little worrying to me how you view others if this is how you view yourself..

Then again I guess this could just be a vent post that you kinda forget is public. I don't mean to be an asshole about it, I do that on tumblr a lot TwT