Ouuuu Iβm too stupid to have a job why must this little puppy ardently work to fold clothes at retail storeβ¦ My paws are so tiredβ¦ Iβm not for this world!!!!1!1! Let me sunbathe on the carpet!
Don't get yourself worked up over what's come and gone while you have a whole future ahead. You haven't met all the people you're meant to meet. Focus on what comes next rather than what will come back. I've pinned over my past a lot but at some point I realized it's no longer present for a reason. don't wait for an outside influence and look at your life as a story you get to write.
God I love characters with no autonomy. No freedom. Never even experienced it. Made to follow orders yet intentionally crafted with a rebellious spirit. Like a cruel, ironic joke. Imagine your soul being specifically sculpted to crave freedom, for it to be such a deep rooted and central part of you only for your entire existence being a means to an end. What's even worse, is that you PHYSICALLY cannot reject orders. Programmed or otherwise, it's impossible to gain the independence you yearn for. But you don't know anything else, do you? All these feelings, these emotions aren't yours to have. Because your purpose isn't to live, it's to succeed. You've never viewed yourself as human or sapient. Just ones and zeros. Because that's all you'll ever be. It's all you know how to be.
Potential is only a concept of what a future can be. Who is to decide when the time for that future to come to fruition has passed or not? Your potential is never gone.