>intake therapy session >zoom link >bossman dlow blaring like that one soulja boy clip >me running in a circle in a 6' x 18' room >"yeah i'm like a 4chan survivor"
i wanna punch a hole in a drywall so fucking bad icl i get so fucking get the urges of the Kyle. but like not in a rage way but in a sensory way . feel the wall quickly sink in from my fist . prolly feels awesome .
did it for the lulz by ilysm - mentioned this last thread but i've listened thru it a few times and it's really fucking good . great experimental hip hop (that blows new that peggy out of the fucking water imho god new peggy pmo so fucking much it's unreal) it's the homie so i'm biased but she simply does not miss.
Béla Fleck and the Flecktones - awesome modern jazzy tunes that utilizes western sounds in very cool ways. sounds like the 90s. a homie put me onto it a few weeks ago. awesome music awesome sounds.
terrified by fakemink - speaking of experimental hip hop with some heft to it, awesome over blown bass music. swagged out beyond belief but also kinda self aware. "i'm rich, you're broke, no one does it like me and it will probably be the death of me" type of lyrics. i heard he's homophobic asf so like idk take that into consideration ig. if u can't hang i get it but if you're a tranny like me who's used to trans/homophobia in every corner of hip hop but ur just in it for good tunes, i recc.
crack jokes to yourself! do what you can to make yourself laugh. i grew up incredibly quiet and unsociable and i think keeping myself entertained with jokes to myself established my sense of humor which i could then bring to other people once i started developing the courage to be really social.
word yea i can see that. i broke my laptop during a gamer rage as a teen and was really embarassing and sucked and was lame and all that . but never with a drywall and never from a place of pure rage . and like maybe part of it is due to rage but in a more playful way, like a catharsis in hitting something and using my body . i defo juts think about the sensory experience of punching drywall a lot .
i might do it consciously and with purpose tho just to experience it . go to home depot. get the cheapest chunk of drywall i can get. put it in my garage . punch . experience .
bitknot by feeble little horse - had it on loop for past few days during commutes. fuzzy guitar tone and catchy understated vocals so awesome.
dummy by portishead - been revisiting this a lot lately for the vibes. classic downtempo moodiness.
what to think about again by away with words - awesome skrams ep. especially been obsessed with heaven sent off that, the breakdown into "STUPID, STUPID, STUPID" is such an awesome moment
ok. you must be trolling me because you MUST know that you DRINK guinesses, not smoke them. :eyeroll: i'll excuse your mistake this time. don't let it happen again.