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aethereal 🌟

infatuated emo

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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-20 22:41 🇬🇧
why do i have any expectations of a teenage boy?

all teenage boys are the same unfortunately

what a lovely reason to remind myself of my queerness

happy pride month ppls!!! ily all!!
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-19 20:50 🇬🇧
my boy asked me today which i prefer but i high key cant pick
catboys 75%
dogboys 25%
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-19 20:48 🇬🇧
i love fantasising that someone is deeply in love with me to the point of obsession, even though i have a boy atm

i think its more to do with the fact that everyone treats eachother with such apathy, that even toxic relationships, when consisting of true devotion, seem incredibly attractive.

tell someone you love them today char <3
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aethereal 🌟 reposted 2026-06-18 23:27 🇬🇧
an exerpt of a vent i wrote in my notes app only 8 months ago. i dont particularly feel this way anymore, but reading back through it made me realise and remember things about myself. i thought these ideas should be shared somewhere.
aethereal 🌟 2026-06-18 23:26 🇬🇧
I've come to the realisation that there aren't many actually compassionate people out there quite some time ago. I hate the way that speech binds thought so firmly, that I cannot express all I ought in the few words people choose to listen to. I don't believe myself to be a good person, truly. But, in some sense, if you only ever act like the thing you want to become, are you not just that?

I feel like such a tool, like I'm only there to carry everyone else's thoughts and feelings with me, unable to speak for myself. My observations and intuition is often incredibly accurate, it seems to perfectly pinpoint the issue and force others to face and overcome it. So why am I not enough? Is it egotistical of me to think these things if I am not truly omniscient? People like to think that I am. I don't feel like anyone even tries to actually see me. The purpose I serve is all I am worth to the world.
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-18 23:26 🇬🇧
I've come to the realisation that there aren't many actually compassionate people out there quite some time ago. I hate the way that speech binds thought so firmly, that I cannot express all I ought in the few words people choose to listen to. I don't believe myself to be a good person, truly. But, in some sense, if you only ever act like the thing you want to become, are you not just that?

I feel like such a tool, like I'm only there to carry everyone else's thoughts and feelings with me, unable to speak for myself. My observations and intuition is often incredibly accurate, it seems to perfectly pinpoint the issue and force others to face and overcome it. So why am I not enough? Is it egotistical of me to think these things if I am not truly omniscient? People like to think that I am. I don't feel like anyone even tries to actually see me. The purpose I serve is all I am worth to the world.
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-18 23:19 🇬🇧
btw just so my stance is clear; #fuckfascists
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aethereal 🌟 reposted 2026-06-18 23:08 🇬🇧
intello 🌟 2026-06-17 21:26 🇨🇦
I really wish I could care less but unfortunately all I do is care
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-16 22:25 🇬🇧
wow char youre getting violent tonight
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-15 22:13 🇬🇧
exams are over!! yk what that means

we can date without ppl exploding us with their minds!

anyway had another date today which was actually really cute, mostly cause he asked and hugged me (kinda)? like a side hug i mean

also please can someone explain to me what the fascination is with dating people so much taller than you? its so uncomfortable bcs wdym i gotta look to the sky to see his face and he has to crouch to look at me???

yeah i like him a lil
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-08 06:49 🇬🇧
so i forgot to update on the date

it went so well oh my god we went to the forest and pushed eachother around in shopping carts

the only issue now is that (due to social complications) not many people can actually know that we're talking

oh and he thinks im awesome and gets nervous around me and likes me so im still #winning
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-06 00:13 🇬🇧
HE ASKED ME OUT!!!
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-05 05:35 🇬🇧
how do i get him to ask me to prom without asking him? like a want a little proposal
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aethereal 🌟 2026-06-03 23:51 🇬🇧
update!!!

he has admitted that he likes me a little (we are playing it safe so we are both at a stalemate) and we are talking more often

in struggling to find opportunities to speak with him in person because im currently on study leave but he seems to genuinely have taken an interest in me after opening up a little to me

my preconceptions of him were severely off balance but still on the right track. due to the similarities between us, i feel like i can actually finally speak to someone genuinely for once, even though i am being very cautious with the information i share with him and the things that i say

did i mention that the only person i have ever met to rival my intellect actually likes me very strongly and wants to further develop the relationship??

I WIN!!!
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-22 20:49 🇬🇧
on a more positive note, im going to a shitty music concert tomorrow with some friends, and im actually super excited
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-22 20:48 🇬🇧
i love my friends but why am i the only one ever trying to actually be friends with them?
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-16 21:26 🇬🇧
i hate that i understand how he thinks but i cant decide how to approach him
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-12 14:57 🇬🇧
yolo is the only motivation i will ever need
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-12 06:03 🇬🇧
decided to say fuck it and just speak to this horrible person for plot and im very giidy about it

i will regret this very soon
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-10 14:01 🇬🇧
sometimes i buy those pre-cooked beetroots that come in the vacuumed plastic wrappers and pick them up with my bare hands and eat them like im eating someones beating heart when i get overwhelmed
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aethereal 🌟 2026-05-10 12:32 🇬🇧
oh to be loved unconditionally for once
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