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seveer 🌟 2026-07-24 16:19 🇦🇺

Definitely went out of my way to not expect love for being me, because I’m acutely aware of the contradictions and complications I bring to the table. The tough part is hearing so many say I’m normal when I always been that acquaintance instead of being a friend.

I’m not seeking sympathy, I’m seeking others insight. Still so scared that if I go full authentic, everyone’s abandoning me including close friends and family… but I’m also unable to keep doing this without being brutally honest.

I don’t want lose all the people I care about before I lose myself, but it seems easier on them if I’m a lost cause before I depart.

Fuck.

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seasheep 🌟 2026-07-24 19:10 🇬🇧

The other side of this expectation of affection is understanding that you deserve to be loved as much as the next person is. Again, I know this may sound too simple, but talk to your friends, your roommate, and anyone else you're concerned you gave a bad impression to. You'll find that even if you did make them uncomfortable, they will often want to understand, especially if you initiate the conversation.

Relationships can only deepen built on mutual understanding. Hiding yourself constantly and suddenly bursting out into a different person will be worrying to your companions who believed you to be a different person.

Reiterated, just talk, first, at least. From there, you can get a better idea of what your company actually thinks, instead of wallowing in anxious projections.

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