i forgot how to lollygag. i forgot to relax. i forgot how to dillydally. i forgot how to mill around. i forgot how to dawdle. i spent so much time occupying myself, i forgot how to live.
aware i sound miserable. leaning on my countertop with fresh eggs cooked for my husband waiting for them to get home and i heard my cat jingle from the next room. singing along to my favourite music. there is an undercurrent of dread but i am doing. Ok
the internet will misunderstand you every step of the way. go back to your loved ones. stop watching those videos telling you that everything you ever do up to and including breathing is wrong just do your best
i want something to feel relaxing i want to feel relaxed i want to stop feeling like i am running on empty i want to feel excitement to jump into my favourite hobbies i want to stop being tired i want to relax
its been funny seeing certain kinks as discussed online go from reactions of disgust, to jokes of disgust, to lighthearted jokes, to... General acceptance.
am i dissociated? am i depressed? am i exhausted? am i understimulated? overstimulated? am i sick? it's gotta be one of these things and none of the solutions are tipping the scales
gonna be locked in a van with some of my nearest and dearest tomorrow so that'll help a bit but i also want to know what's going on with the other friends :(
a few of my closest friends are either way too busy to be hanging out or they have regressed into themselves bc they aren't doing mentally well and it's been. Lonely.
i feel that, it's sometimes difficult to determine what's a date and what's hanging out and then suddenly you realise it doesn't matter all that much so long as you're enjoying each other
for a lot of asexuals though this is Not how their lack of attraction works, they do NOT have that one exception. but sexuality or lack thereof is fluid that way. i have been in relationships where my gender preference did not match with the other person and we were pretty happy! things just happen
nah u sound curious, it got me thinking abt it for the 1st time in a while!
asexuality is a spectrum much like say bisexuality where someone may prefer dating one gender more than another but still be interested in multiple genders Vs a bisexual interested in more than one gender rather equally among genders
my asexuality fits the definition in that i do not feel sexual attraction to pretty much Anyone. just the one person got extremely lucky (?) to get landed with all my attractions. this has only happened once before. there is a specific name for this if you look up asexuality terms but i am a 1000 years old & lost track of which one it is and it is late & i should be asleep, lol
i get this maybe it seems fairly normal, but it is the fact that if this person was not in my life i find the idea of sex outside the boundaries of my head repulsive and unappealing - the repulsive part is important here. idk how else to better describe it. there are definitely people who experience similar+can word this better
fight the good fight then by being aroace the best you absolutely can because those same people in power would get awfully frustrated that they can't manipulate you into the nuclear family model
you are so right. peeverts are like penguins. they flock together to get warm. and do other things. science says perverts may actually be penguins but who is to say